Part of me feels like screaming, part of me feels like crying, part of me feels like killing the nearest creature with a blunt instrument.  I am…to say the least…very confused and very sad.  I want somebody to be here, to tell me it will be okay, that everything will turn out for the best, to hold me and just let me emote.  No one is here.  Pray for me.  Pray that this information won’t break me.  I am still…I don’t know…